i’ve seen quite a few people answer this different ways… emotionally/personality and physical aspects.
i feel every emotion strongly - i think when it comes down to it, this would have fallen under day 1’s category because sometimes (especially in the past) it can be terribly overwhelming. so when i’m hurt, i’m really hurt. there have been times where i wished i could have turned it off with a switch of some sort so i just didn’t care anymore. but now, i have come to find that it also means when i’m happy, i’m really happy. and when i love, i deeply, truly love you. that counts for my relationships and friendships as well. i think it might set me apart from most people. they’re so cold, and things seem to go right over their heads like nothing happened. but i feel everything, strongly. and i’d always, always choose feeling too much over feeling nothing at all. i’ve been there, and quite frankly i don’t want to be an empty shell. a machine. a ghost.
i keep an open mind/don’t judge - i’ll accept anyone despite looks, mistakes they’ve made, status, wealth, differences, etc. as long as you treat me right, i have no reason to judge. i know i’m not perfect, so who would i be to point at people and pull out a bunch of flaws? and that’s really what i don’t understand about people. i don’t get how you can simply look at someone and automatically decide you don’t like them, or they aren’t good enough for you. at the end of the day you don’t know them. i’ve noticed this happens a lot between girls especially. they compete with each other, judge each other, make assumptions and just decide the other girl is the enemy. ..guess what, you guys would probably like each other if you chilled out and got to know each other.
i don’t get jealous - for example, the above post about girls judging each other. if i see another girl and think she’s pretty, it’s not a matter of if she’s prettier than me so i should be jealous. it’s something to admire someone for, not try to ruin their lives because of it. and a lot of it boils down to a self-esteem thing. i’m a confident person, after years of working on it. i’m not cocky, i don’t think i’m better than anyone else. i have my flaws, but i own them. i don’t rip myself apart for it. i always thought it was strange that i would be friendly to girls i would just meet/be introduced to..and yet they would be catty immediately and get jealous. whenever i talked to anyone about it, they all would say: "obviously. they’re jealous because you’re beautiful and nice so they feel threatened." i just don’t get it…looks wise, i didn’t choose my features, i was born with them. so don’t hate me for it. and as far as being nice, a lot of people are. not to mention i’m always trying to make new friends and just be nice to them, so stop being a jerk thanks. i think if a lot more girls started giving themselves credit and stopped focusing so much on trying to be someone else, my gender would get along a lot better. and also when a guy tries to make me jealous, it doesn’t happen because i’m secure with myself and my relationship.
This girl here. This lady here, Traci, has made my life so much better than it ever could have been before. She is literally the sweetest, kindest, warmest (metaphorically ;p ) woman I have ever had the pleasure to know. And best of all, she absolutely loves me the way I love her.
I think hate is a really strong word, to be honest. I don’t hate myself and therefore i’ll explain things i dislike about myself.
1) i can be too nice - is it possible? Yup. Is it a bad thing? Mmm, yes and no. Or for those who went to Nipmuc and had Mr. Petherick “Um, yar and no.” I think a majority of the humans in this world could afford to be a bit more nice than they are. Unfortunately the ones that are nice, usually get taken advantage of. Which brings me to my point.. people sort of walk all over me. By sort of, I might really mean: they do. If someone hurts you, betrays you, etc.. giving them the benefit of the doubt can be understandable if you think if was a one time thing or it was a misunderstanding. i always give the benefit of the doubt, because i understand that sometimes you need a second chance in life. however, most people after the 2nd or 3rd time of being screwed over cut that person out of their lives. I continue to forgive multiple times, or forgive for something terrible someone did to me. I need to learn to put my foot down and stand up for myself a bit more and learn when to let go.
2) i have really bad anxiety. - i need to learn how to relax and not be stressed out all the time. i know i don’t have control over the fact that i actually have anxiety, trust me i’d get rid of it in an instant if i could. but i need to focus more on forgetting the things i can’t change. there’s no use worrying about something that is going to happen no matter what.
3) i procrastinate - i have no idea why. i put things off, probably due to the above, i most likely dont want to worry or stress about anything so i’ll just put it off. i need to just tackle things first thing because i always regret it. i don’t want it to carry through when i’m older and end up having a huge negative effect on my life.
4) i’m too hard on myself/superman complex - i’m constantly taking the blame for everything even things that have nothing to do with me. i make excuses for people when they do shitty things. i try to save everyone and fix their problems even when its destructive towards myself. i just want to help people. i don’t always get what i deserve.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself. Day 02 → Something you love about yourself. Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for. Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for. Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life. Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do. Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on. Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on. Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter) Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage. Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol. Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life. Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today. Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now? Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
“It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that the people you have known forever don’t see things the way you do. And so you keep the memories, but find yourself moving on.”—
i’ve lived a million different places. i was born in salem, massachusetts, grew up for awhile in lynn, massachusetts for a little bit. and then for most of my life i lived in swampscott, massachusetts.